Wild Mountain Skies

Notice that I changed things around here? I decided it was time.

I knew I had to change the title. “The Ford Family Brad, Tahsha and Aingeleah” just seemed like I was lying to myself.

It took me a long time to decide what to title my blog to. I didn’t want to change it to The Ford Family: Tahsha and Leah. That’s too pathetic. And something dumb like Diaries of a Widow is...dumb.

So I landed on Wild Mountain Skies.

While were putting Brad’s funeral program together (horrible thing to do by the way) we found this scrapbook page I’d made for Brad a few years back and it was perfect. The words of the poem were perfect too.

Give him a fire in his heart

Give him a light in his eyes

Give him the wild wind for a brother

And the wild mountain skies

(the lyrics are from John Denver’s song with one word change)

So it became the theme for Brad. It was on the cover of his program. It’s engraved on his headstone. It’s been used on pictures of Brad that my family and I have in our homes.

As time went on, the meaning of those simple words stared to change.

For me, when I think of the term Wild Mountain Skies, I don’t just think of a man who loved to be out in the mountains more than anywhere in the world. I think of a man who had a passion for his goals and aspirations, who had devotion to the things that mattered most to him, who didn’t waste time dreaming. He went out, worked hard and achieved it! It really embodies the way that he lived his life.

My goals and my desires for my life have changed because of the way that Brad lived his. I want this blog to help me to encompass that everyday. For Brad, that sort of zeal came naturally. He lived everyday to the fullest. For me, I have to work harder to fight off all the the weaknesses I have that keep me from reaching my goals and my dreams.

I’m still planning on sharing the experiences I have in this weird new life without Brad. But I don’t want it to be one of those widow blogs where every post depressing. (Don’t worry, some of them still will be.) I’m trying to figure out how to not let my grief consume me, and though I have no idea what life has in store for me, I’m want to make it a great one. I want to constantly keep the inspiration that I and many others felt in the weeks following Brad’s death in my life everyday.

Remember this post?

So, Wild Mountain Skies it is!